I’m at my breaking point. All this has come to, is me crying myself to sleep every other night. I mean I know I am my own worst problem, but its hard to let go of someone if you still love them. Its not like he left, but just the way things are… I feel like his life would be better without me. He has said a million times before that he doesn’t want me to leave… but I just feel like I should. I told him that I don’t want my heart broken, but he’s already broken it countless of times… Making promises that were never fulfilled. It hurts… waiting to be with someone. Its literally eaten me away. You feel as if you’re never good enough to actually be with that person… Its like sometimes when I hang out with him, I’m just dead quiet. There are so many thoughts running through my head, I can’t even pull myself to reality. It just sucks.